winter.... what's next...

Winter is here.... it is cold cold cold tonight. I just read my previous posts. I did not go to confest at Easter. We did however go to a lovely little festival called renaissance. It was great, Ayda loved camping she fit right in, running around making friends wherever she could! it was a good learning experience for both of us, to be able to give her space to explore and do what she wanted with out getting too far away, and teaching her to listen to me and come back when i call her!

She slept in her pram at night so i could wander around the festival and listen to the music! which ayda loved when she was awake! dancing with everyone! little heart breaker!!

so we are now living just the two of us, i am working 3 days a week and ayda is in childcare. i make and sell childrens clothes which is fun.

just trying to figure out the next step.... the monotony of life is getting to me a bit. not saving any money still just living week to week and don't see that changing soon... do the same things week in week out..... whats next..... who knows!

Planning Planning Planning

Last easter i did not go to confest, i said i would go at new years when ayda was older. Now it is new years, and i am not going to confest! what happened? i think i forgot about it, i didn't plan it in my head so it didn't happen!!

There is still time to go though, years past i would have packed up and gone at the flick of a switch, these days, too hard to make such a snap decision! i need to plan ahead, because i am not just planning for me!

So i am planning to go to confest this easter! The weather is generally more bearable at easter, and there shouldn't be as many people, and now i have a few months to plan it!

So today i nabbed some bargains in the boxing day sales!! picked up a tent for a massive 50% off!! an air mattress for 70% off and a pump for 60% off!! never had good quality camping gear, so i am looking forward to trying this new stuff out at easter!!

LIfe as i know it

So i have decided to start a blog that explores life as i know it... that looks at how i am trying to fit 'me' into motherhood, how i am trying to stay in touch with my old life and figure out a future for me and my baby girl.

She grows so much everyday and is learning things so fast, i can hardly keep up. It is amazing to think that one day she will be able to use her words to tell me what she thinks, and it scares me a little bit too!!

Looking forward to the future, although am a bit nervous and anxious about what it might bring.....

life as i know it?? that is long gone....